DXB - IST summer '07
ok its about 8.47am now... actually woke up at about 5am jus couldnt sleep... hmm... was surfing the net and watched D&G summer 08 fashion show... haha not bad man... well anyways im gonna blog about my trip to DXB - IST.
my previous visit was last year around the december period... looking back i still prefer visiting during winter time... this time around was the hot hot summer!! argh...
day 1
arrive to DXB at about mid night woke up that morning and headed down to city centre. Dubai's biggest shopping mall. if u were to ask me wats so big about this mall im jus gonna tell u thats it jus a mall with lots of shops kind of like VIVO but even bigger with lots of shops... had lunch there, some kebabs and labanese salads... haha kind of miss it after tasting it during winter the other time so! i had to go back for more... hence we had the same few dishes... after filling my stomach i had my dad wait for my on a bench as i speed shop the whole mall... hmmm went to H&M, ZARA, Topman, Pull and Bear etc... their shops r quite similar to singapore but they hav a greater variety when it comes to international labels... as i shop i was jus feeling like shit... cus there was anythign that i fancy... everything was like expensive compared to singapore.... haha i mean even though they r a tax free nation but hey! u didnt expect to hav clothings even more ex eh? how stupid right?
after shopping i went to meet my dad and we headed to the gold souk aka gold market... haha nothing to buy, no money to buy! jus walked through the area... seriously?! nothing to see.... lots of gold lor... so? anyways after that my dad was dragging me with him to find he's CHICKEN TIKKA!!! omg... its this restaurant that he suppositely say serves up good food... can u believe it we spent about an hour jus finding that place on foot asking about 10+ ppl b4 reaching... seriously i was freakin mad... as in we had already ate and he jus kept going on and on after many wrong directions given by pedasterians... finally it was him who found a familiar sign board that leads him to his chicken tikka! wat the hell... hahhaa i jus snap a pic of him with his tikka and went off cus the shop was closed...
headed to the river where the old arab ships can be found its like clarke quay its dubai's old trading port... so as expected, there were lots of shipments from around the world... i even found straits times like from how many centeries ago... haha! after ship watching we walked by foot to the small passenger ship area where we were transported to the other part of dubai, the main city.... the boat ride was jus nice... its eased all my tension with all those walking under the sun with my dad going crazy... i felt very relaxed watching boat after boat pass ours. nice experience... only 2dhs which is like even less than a dollar for a boat ride... anyways arrive at the other part of dubai and did some shopping for that traditional head scarf!!! haha i finally bought one! about 15dhs... yea quite cool considering that it can save me from having my neck burnt!!! haha! after that we headed back to the hotel... freakin tired and jus wanna rest... it was evening...
after a nap my dad gave a call to his old friend uncle safe... haha sounds like that but doubt its spelled like that.. he's a prince in dubai so i hope he wnt sent me to jail for calling him that! haha! okok anyways we went to meet him near the iconic clock tower and had him chuaffered us with his new benz! omg... freakin cool... but of cus it dam cheap to buy cars in dubai so wat the heck... hahaha! i bet i could buy one BMW easily... hahaha! we went to see some of he's building development... haha apparently he has become a realy big hit in dubai real estate biz... he has this signature design... very over then top very him... haha his jokes r really funny... finally we arrive at his house mirdif area... met aunty michelle haha he was a funny as ever... and her two cats! SUSU & GINGER!!! susu has black fur with full gold eyes... how nice eh? and ginger has like gold fur with normal eyes but he's cuter... had dinner at their place!! ah!!!!!!!!!! had my fav fired mutton with spicey sauce!!!!!!!!! hahhaa omg hahaha i ate about half of the dish... i hope i didnt show that i was greedy... :P after dinner jus had some chit chat with lots of dirty jokes haha and finally it was time to call it a day... uncle safe son sent us back to the hotel and yup thats it for day one...
day 2
woke up early to catch the shuttle to the beach... its not jemeriah that we went its another one al something... anyways we arrived to the beach and man it was freakin hot!!!!!!!! but who cares... i jus went on to the sea to have a dip or a swim... the sand was freakin hot if u dnt hav a slipper ure like walking on fire... anyways i was jus like a loner swimming by myself cus my dad didnt wanna go under the sun afraid of heat stroke... so alone i was jus people watching... haha lots of good looking ppl man... mainly russians... u get arabs too... there were this two arab guys that went to me and said that they love my style... hehe... okok i think i sent about 2 hours under the sun then head to the lockers for a shower... imagine having 30degrees or hotter of water showering u... man it was a dreadful experience...
after headin to the beach we went back to the hotel and spent the whole day rotting... i mean theres no where else i wanna go... so freakin bored... my dad headed to the sauna in the hotel haha and told me that he encountered a gay... haha so! i went and look for him after my dad came back to the room... i actually wanted to go t the steamroom so thats y i went to check out the gay on the same time... arh~ jus needed a jaccuzzi to massage my back... as i changed to my suit i headed to the steam bath first as i sat i saw some one looking at me... and it was the gay!!!!!!! hahah omg i was freaked out! he wanted to come in and mind u... the room has only 4 seats... i mean im fine with another person coming in but he?! no way! haha i ran out to the jaccuzzi... relaxed for about 10mins and in came the gay again! headin to the jaccuzi!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!! i quickly ran out b4 he could even come in... hahah he looked puzzled like y am i doing that... "hello, i knw ur secret" haha! and he looks fucking ugly! haha he's philipino... i call him "bahk la" meaning gay in tegalok... after that i went back to my room to hav dinner...
haha all in all dubai trip was not bad laz... kind of boring though after my visit in winter... haha but i got to practice my french with this marroco guy! haha freakin cool... i even converse with him jus fine... ahha and he said i sounded like i was from france!!! hahaha! okok im like freakin ego now... hahaha ok but yea he made my day in dubai...
day2
that night we left for ist...
day3
arrive on e bright morning in IST. had breakfast at the restaurant and minggled with the stewardess... haha i even found a senior from acjc... haha cool eh? so we clicked and planned a cruise along the Bosphorous river... after dinner i headed to the steam room for for steamming sessions! hahaha! oh by this time my face was like a inverted panda... totally tanned out... like a lobster... after the session i jus headed back to the room for a afternoon nap... woke my dad up at evening time for lunch with some stewards, stewardess and a pilot. we had lunch at a somewhat like a italian cafe... haha pricey but food was good man... haha always like istanbul!!! :) i had like fried chicken with melted cheese and mushrooms... omg....... heaven!!!! hahahah! after that we jus did some shopping but again! didnt bought anything cus its pricey... can u imagine that the turkish lira is actually bigger than singapore dollar?! omg... sucks man... after shopping we jus walked down the street and headed to the tallest tower of istanbul... where u can see the whole city from... then we walked further down hill to see the brigde that link us to the spice market and the blue mosque but it was too far so was jus at the brigde viewing from afar... it was starting to get chilly as night draws in.... haha as we walked back to take transport back to the hotel haha i was talking to a stewardess about he fright on getting sold to the black market for her intestines! hahha! omg... but we went back safely... duh~ if not i wouldnt be here typing this entry... hahahah! along our way to the hotel... we went to a pub for some drinks and a game of checkers... haha it was fun... oh and this cute girl came along blocking everyone that wants to get in her way... haha she even posed for me when i took a photo of her... :)
day4
woke up in the morning and headed for breakfast at a kebab joint... after that we went back to the hotel to prep for our cruise along the Bosphorous river... we paid 40euros? quite ex but hey... worth the money... we got on the bus and it was only us and two other tourist from india... hahah so we had like lots of personal time with the tour guide... we first arrived at a cafe as we had to wait for the ship to arrive... while waiting we were treated by the tour guide with drinks... haha then my itchy eyes saw this guy frying mussles!!!!!! ar!!!!!!! jus had to hav it in my mouth! and hell yea1 it tasted good man! hahaha! we ordered two plates and the owner even gave us a thrid plate for free!!! hahaha! cool eh?
after eating it was time to head on the ship... we boarded and went on... man the view was fantastic along the way... lots of houses along the river... something like cruising down vienna but of cos vienna is better! ok this is jus an extra fact... a house along the river cost at a whopping 10million US DOLLARS for a starter.... im surely gonna get one when im rich... along the cruise we got to see some of the ottoman empire palaces and some italian empire watch towers... after the cruise we headed to the spice market that i hav went on the previous trip so quite boring... after that went back to the hotel... i met up with the steward and stewardess and had a swim in the hotel pool! hahaha one of the stewardess named gisele kept making fun of my inverted panda tann... haha idiot... but she is fun and nice la... after taht my dad and me headed for dinner with a pilot and a steward... we had like turkish mixed rice... hahaha! nice nice... was the same stall we went to... after that we had a stroll to digest our food... had a great time talking to the pilot... hmm maybe i would become one one day... who knws... hahaha ok after that went back to sleep
day 5
woke up at about 7am for breakfast... after that headed down to the lobby with lauggage and off we go to the airport... jezz this whole trip was freaking tiring... got on the plane and headed to dubai for transit... left my dad as my dad woul be staying and i had to leave for singapore! if not could hav went clubbing with his crew! dam.... anyways i shopped at dubai duty free and bought lots of alochol... after that head back to the plane and went back to singapore... i thought i could sleep and try to adjust to singaore timing but no! hais... so was awake through out...
day 6
upon arrival i called my mum to fetch me then we head to bedok for mee pok! :) after breakfast i rushed to school... ok no sleep can? straight from airport to sch... wat a jet setter i am... ya right... if it wasnt for accounting... man i was really burnt by then... feeling giddy too no sleep... hais wanted LOA but wasnt approved... hais... wat MC??? i mean this type of thing also need to waste money to buy? argh... stupid sch requirement...
ok i kind fo enjoyed and hate this trip... however i got to see places that i havent been b4... so yea was not bad... on my trip up to dubai i met up with a old captain... i had a long and hearty conversation with him... he really motivates me... and even have me think twice on considering piloting... well miss talking to u captain! hope to see ya on another flight someday! :)
ok pics r up jus got to the link and look for gallery! ciao!
a blank sheet that goes with the wind...
Punch me a million times!!! PLEASE! i dnt knw wats going on in my mind... i really jus wanna end my life... theres is nothing exciting about life... i feel... i feel... miserable... im filled with misery... im jus going insane... its crazy how i mature mentality so fast that i cnt keep up... its like i have done everything in this world... and theres nothing to look forward to... i lost my teenage life on driving myself to be successful in life... if success were to come its all worth it, but it isnt. im speaking in life as a whole... im jus really sad... i wanna see myself from another person's body... i really wanna give myself a honest critiqe... although i hav told myself wat i should do in future i suddenly got back to square one, lost. yesterday, my sis played the heartlander episode in which i acted in... i felt disgusted... i wanted to cry jus there and then... i told myself that i must be professional at the shoot and that it would be all fine after the shot... but i was wrong... it left a scar in my heart... a scar of shame... i wasnt acclaimed for having good acting skills nor got any jobs in future... in fact after that shot i got even worst jobs like the mediacorp radio ad that i did... then, i thought the same that i should be professional in my assignments... but in the end i felt hurt again... its like really having a knife stabbed into ur heart. im really sad... is that how far i can go as an actor? or a model? im really questioning myself... if im so good to be a student with the singapore repertory theatre y would i be doing such kind of jobs??? if there were variation its good. but NO! there wasnt... time and time again i was offered roles in which im making a fool of myself... i try not to think that way cus i keep telling myself that this could very well be my big break into stardom...im really sad... my mum is very sad... sometimes i can feel how my mum feels with regards to my persus in this career... she sometimes jus feels sad for me but doesnt wan to discourage me... there was this incident in which my mum was with me when i approach an modeling agency in which my mum used to work for and the coldness that i received was evident... i was about to burst into tears... and i told my mum y wouldnt they give me a chance? jus one chance? a chance that i would cherish so dearly... and my mum kept quiet... she then said that if this industry was really meant for you, ppl would have been lining up to get u... but it isnt the case as she can tell... and i told her how much i wan this and it would be nice if she could help! but in the end my mum was put into a tight spot... that day i really wanted to cry in the toilet... my mum was really heartbroken to see my breakdown to such a level in which im jus throwing myself to them... in the end i was jus given a contact card from the agent out of pressure... im really really really down... i was fighting back my tears and my mum was too as we were in public... its like no matter how good i am ill nvr get to where i wan to be... modeling is a gone case after spending 6 fucking years to learning the art... acting? man i hav no idea... wat roles will i get? nerd? no wait how about a geek with specs dirtied with gel?! i was nvr the handsome one since young, constantly compared to my cousin who is so different from how i look... obviously i became the ugly duckling at home and in school... it wass hard growing up... trying to impress ppl... making myself look good with hundreds of things when others dnt hav to put in effort at all... im really sick of life... im sick of looking at myself in the mirror asking how can i improve... im sick of asking for chances... I! AM FUCKING SICK WITH MY FUCKING LIFE!!!!! i feel so numb... thers nothing else in this world that i wanna do anymore... i lost everything... no confidence, no nothing... im jus a blank sheet letting ppl step on... i rmb those times when i was young... when i used to knock my head against the wall.... thats wat i wanna do now... i hope i could knock myself hard enough to death!!!! i knw its a sin! but FATHER!!! please save me...... im so desperate im no longer adler anymore!!!!!!! im jus a tiny creature with no say in life!!!!!! father! please.... please dont make me go insane... its like i could snap any minute and jus go retarded... father i confide in u everytime when im in pain... since young till now... you saw through my ups and downs... you know how lonely i feel sometimes... how rejected i feel....i learned that every test you give us is for a reason... but y must i go through so much!!!! y the fucking hell i need to go through that!!!!!! its not as if i need all this suffering to help me cope something big that would happen in my life?!!?!?!?well... i was in tears jus a second ago... now im back to numb... wats wrong with me? i dnt knw? but im sure no one has seen this side of me... Father, i pray for ur forgiveness for my sins... make me go back to my younger days where i would sleep next to my mum in peace and protection...
